September 2010
I Am In Misery
The silence is slowly killing me
Why do you do what you do to me, yeah?
FOOD POISONING
Yep, it came with diarrhoe, headaches and a 38.0 degree fever.
why. WHY ME.
Ikuuyo.
I just watched a show. A really touching show.
And I’m inspired to write an essay
But I’m too sleepy now haha
lawllllllllll ok nvm weeeeeee psh
one happy post drowning in ten million unhappy others
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I don’t want to look at them.
It isn’t guilt, it isn’t fear, it isn’t hatred
Just…I don’t want to feel envious
Envy destroys what I already have.
Or...
Comparisons are easily done, once you've had a...
You said move on, where do I go?
I guess that second best is all that I would know
This is real, so take a chance and don't ever look...
I would like to curl up and die
My prelims are kind of, screwed.
I failed Amath (again) only to realise that actually I could’ve passed because I could do the questions that I couldn’t do back then.
I failed Humanities because of my miserable Social Studies mark.
I’m probably going to fail Bio,
And English kinda gave out on me, leaving me with a C6.
So I’m left with an L1R4 of 19, and depending on my...
I always tell them I ain't human, but they never...
Hello
I’m uncomfortable when with the closest of friends.
The mood changes when with them.
My guard goes up when I’m close,
My mouth zips itself up, tightly pinched together.
They talk, I shut myself out.
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Give me the words and I’ll say them like I mean it.
Because I don’t know what to say anymore.
It feels like everything I say can and will be used against...
You're looking so low, you're looking like the...
If I'm all that you're looking for, tell me, why...
M.I.A
It gets cold when she’s not around.
I float until I sink and I’m swallowed up
It’s so cold when she’s not around,
I wait for her to come home and tell me I’ll be fine.
Tell me I’ll be fine…
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I think I ended up ripping it up after spending hours on it.
Malevolence
Scanning through rows and rows of text, looking for the perfect one.
Thoughts running through my head, looking for what went wrong.
Desperately searching for someone or something, but to find none.
Reckless abandon.
If I could die right now I would, 'cause the only...
Darling, you look twisted.
I feel distant.
What now.
Pretty useless me, much?
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Back to the card. Because its the only thing I can do.
My black eye casts no shadow, your red eye sees...
Your slaps don’t stick
My kicks don’t hit
So we remain the same.
Love sticks
Sweat drips
Break the lock if it don’t fit.
A kick in the teeth is good for some.
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Sometimes I just feel like giving up.
"That's the last song you'll ever sing"
Took a stone and broke its neck,
Slumped back down, carcass in my hand.
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The chalet is tomorrow.
Single-Striped Romper.
I brace myself ‘cause I know it’s going to hurt I’m going out, I’m going to drink myself to death.
Can’t take the kid from the fight Take the fight from the kid Sit back, relax Sit back, relapse again
Just sit back, just sit back You’re a regular decorated emergency.
Those striped rompers are the last thing you’ll ever see.
You make me feel like ____?
K U T C H U
